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So the cough I had turns out to have been a bacterial infection or something in my throat, and that's gone now for the most part (the doctor was finally in in this damn clinic)
The good news is now over.
So i have another infection/canker/sore/whatever residing right above one of my teeth that lies next to the extraction site for my wisdom teeth. So I have been unable to sleep for the last 2 days (well, I passed out for about 3 or 4 hours last night from exhaustion, but meh). I'm now hopped up on local anaesthetics and ibuprofen (yay anti inflammation!). It's just kicked in so I'm going to head off to sleep hopefully and get a few hours in before it wears off again.
I was going to post about all the other stuff that was going on in my life but that took a back seat to the throbbing, ever present pain.
Anyway, hopefully all will end well. Good night everyone.
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Update 1: So apparently it was an infection right above the nerve on one of my teeth, which caused the nerve to die (yay?), and then spreading outwards from there. The sore was actually the escape route for all the disgusting fluids and stuff that was building up in there. My dentist quickly and efficiently cleaned it out (and now I'm in less of a world of pain, only a pluto-not-quite-a-planet throb (I'm sorry pluto).
I'm supposed to be taking a lot of antibacterial stuffs in the near future (most of which will kill the friendly bacteria in my stomach) so my daily yogurt and other such foods intake has to increase.
Ah well.
Time to attempt eating (how I've missed food)
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Update 2
So I just had the root canal finish up today... It was an interesting experience, no anaesthetic or anything. I suppose that since I had my root extracted previously, I wasn't expected to feel anything, but when there is pressure or the like placed directly where the root used to touch the flesh, it's still quite sore and painful.
In any case, I'm now all good and stuff. My cough is kind of going away, though it seems to go crazy around 1:30 to 2:00 am every night, and no other time. Strange.
More updates as they happen.
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I've just had two things I was really excited for fall through because of how much of a bitch it is to get from where I now live to anywhere where my friends are, or having them come here.
Why does this suck so much?
Hopefully when I live in Markham it will be much easier to meet up with people, but I won't see one of them for almost a year... sigh.
In other news, I have to get a lot of work done with respect to the computers before I leave. I have to get the ftp server up and running (again) because I did some changes to it, and so that Jen and other people can get stuff from it.
I'll leave a note on here when it's all up and running, and if people want access, just let me know?
-Bog
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To those that have had the pleasure of playing System Shock's spiritual successor, those words will mean more than I can even begin to explain. To the others... well, you can still find time to go through it.
In any case, destructoid put together a very nice little list: www.destructoid.com/the-ten-most-meaningful-videogame-quotes-of-all-time-64837.phtml
I'm assuming you can read the URL for the title, and can grasp what it's going to be about, so yeah.
This may seem like a trite and unimportant little list, but for those who have been through some of these, you realize just how far and immersive this has gotten.
To the Theo : There's a slight... spoiler about Half Life 2 in there. If anything, you will want to play it more, though. The author's reaction and mine during some of those scenes seem to be quite similar <_<
This is why I don't watch movies anymore... And it only gets better, oh yes....
Also, I'm really looking forward to watching Pink Floyd's the wall with someone who will more than likely be freaked out by it.
In any case, that's my 10 minute break, time to head off and write an exam, jeez.
Current Mood:  anxious
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So I've got an exam tomorrow, and I can't write too much right now, but I felt like ranting.
Why are some people in school at all?
There is a clique of people in my class that does nothing but copy assignments between themselves, memorize solutions, and essentially, do everything that school should not be about.
I'm sick and tired of being asked if I've done an assignment or not, only to be prodded for the answers (or in some cases, my final document!). I mean, I understand if you're stuck, and if you're just asking for some hint in which direction to go. But to ask for the step by step analysis, to essentially have the answers handed to you with no effort is quite annoying, not to mention dishonest.
I've helped my fair share of people in good faith, explaining to them the idea of the assignment question (when I did understand it), only to see my explanation written word for word in their final document. I've had to explain my way out of a plagiarism charge when I had one of my 'friends' hand in a pre-lab that looked exactly like mine (except the formatting) because I've had them print it off for me when I ran out of ink. Way to trust people, eh?
Anyway, what irks me more is that because of this type of clique, our marks lose all meaning. These people put together google docs and the like that summarize all the answers for assignments, for questions that the professor is kind enough to give to us to study off of. They defeat the learning process, and I'm getting sick and tired of having a shittier average than some because they choose to copy off of each other.
It doesn't help that the exams themselves are tailored to this rote memorization method, leaving the people more interested in learning for themselves, in learning the why's of it all, shit out of luck.
We have an exam that forces us to think (that essentially those that work by rote memorization cannot study for using their methods) and they bitch. They bitch until the marks get redistributed, until the weighting gets changed, or until we get a new exam tailored to their whims. We get one where the material has no depth, and they applaud the professor, leaving a bitter taste in their mouth and mine.
I don't care if I do that poorly, mainly because I'm not in for grad school or anything like that - I'm in this program for myself. I'm in this program to learn for myself. I do care, however, when all of my hard work means nothing because some people got together, used their fake friendships/sex appeal/whatever and compiled all of the correct answers for the assignment the night before it was due while I and many others toiled away at the problems, sources, and so forth for days or in some cases, weeks.
There's something clearly broken with either our program, our group members, or education in general. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has to deal with this kind of shit.
Thoughts?
Oh, yeah, I have an exam to sleep for. Hooray for late exam, means I get an extra few hours to study tomorrow.
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So yesterday went pretty well. It was the first family gathering I've had for any celebratory purpose where everything went smoothly and, well, not boring.
To those that are curious, it was my father's birthday bonanza thing. Thank you to Ryan and Jen for wishing him a happy birthday, he was very happy.
We had fantastic food (I also managed to make myself some salmon sushi/sashimi with some I managed to liberate from the cooking pile), and drink as well.
The younger few watched my brother play Mirror's Edge, and then we all played some Rock Band, even getting some of the older guests to join in... It was an odd spectacle.
I'm tired as hell and I have two major things to do for tomorrow, before beginning to study for my finals (first one is this Friday, meep). I think I've given up on doing th e minor thing due to time constraints.
In any case, time for bed.
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So I officially no longer live in Ajax.... My parents finished the last of the move over this weekend, and the house will no longer belong to us as of the 1st of December.
I'll miss being around but you're always welcome to visit the new house. Free room and board, and all that. Inquire within?
Back to work for me, though...
Nov. 24th, 2008 @ 12:16 pm
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Mathematical modeling is really fascinating.
I'm doing a simulation of a microfluidic channel inlet for lab-on-a-chip applications right now, for my project due this Friday. It's finally converging, and I can start doing the actual work for the project. I'll upload pictures of it when I finish, if I find any interesting ones.
I'm honestly astounded at how far mathematics has come, and very annoyed that it took until now to finally explore the intricacies of them. If physics class in high school, or even grade school, showed these kinds of applications, and let kids play with them, we'd have a lot more people interested in this field, I think.
My computer is turning into a furnace, and it's all this model's fault. There's so much math going on right now! My hands are burning from the heat coming off of my laptop, and I had to open a window to cool my room down.
For those more mathematically inclined, it's a Navier-Stokes mass transfer function, coupled with diffusion and convection equations, as it takes into account not only the fluid flow rate, but also the concentration of the fluid as it travels through the channel, and how the shape of the channel affects flow, concentration, and so forth. There are12768 degrees of freedom to solve for, which is brutal. We wouldn't be anywhere near where we are today in terms of science without these wondrous machines. Having to do one iteration of a coupled equation by hand, with only 4 degrees of freedom, took me half an hour. This solves that many in a minute.
I don't have enough RAM to actually calculate the full thing, so I'm only getting approximations, but it's still a work of art. I'll have a 2-dimensional model working as well, where I can show the results at higher quality.
In any case, this is just a quick update to give my mind a little time to rest before going back to it...
Update: I just realized that the matrix the thing is trying to solve has 2312921 non-zero elements in it. That means that if the matrix is only diagonal, which it's not, the dimensions of it is 1521x1521 elements in it. How many of you remember matrix math? Imagine doing that on so many values!
Update 2: It takes roughly an hour to arrive at a solution now... And the first hour I wasted because I forgot to put one number in and everything came out wrong. So that leaves me with just tomorrow to get it all ready for Friday. Eep.
Nov. 19th, 2008 @ 04:55 pm
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I've been talking to my most favorite Jen about life, the universe, and everything, when the topic came up of, essentially, what would you do if you found out you only had a limited amount of time to live? Actually, that's a lie, the topic came up first as a question of would you or would you not get your genome sequenced? Furthermore, if you did, would you get it checked for the diseases and complications that you would likely get as you age? I suppose it really starts off as a question of "do you want to know?", and I'm sure people will fall all over the spectrum on this topic. The implications and consequences of finding out you don't have long to live are staggering, and I can't help but feel that if we are given this final countdown, chances are we will try to beat it, either knowingly or not. (For instance, chasing some elusive, sketchy medication that could just kill you prematurely, or doing things well outside the norm without fear for your life, resulting in an untimely demise - you get the point) I for one would like to see what's probabilistically in store for me - I'm too curious not to, and I do believe the advance knowledge would allow me to either minimize the impact or greatly reduce the odds of anything bad happening. That and I'm pretty much living on borrowed time, if you count the medications I'm already taking, so I've sort of learned to appreciate life a bit more than others, I think (someone can vouch for me before I sound self-centered?) I also don't think my life would change all that much. At least, not for my short-term goals. I'd finish my degree, for sure. I might even go for graduate studies, time permitting. I'd stop procrastinating as much, and finally put forth the effort I should have from day one. What would probably change is my pursuit of a few things. I suppose my so called love life is pathetic as is, but if I was living on time even more borrowed than now, this might be one thing I might stop pursuing altogether - at least, a serious one. Those that know me can probably ascertain why. The topic drifted to a man named Randy Pausch, who delivered a spectacular last lecture, found here: http://video.google.com/videosearch?q=the+last+lecture&emb=0# It's an hour or so of your time, but I greatly recommend watching it. Reading about it is one thing, but watching it is another, entirely. I watched this lecture days after it was delivered, and again after news broke out. I'll leave the mystery of what I'm talking about to you. Those not interested need not apply. So I'm curious about a few things... Would you want to have your genome sequenced? Would you want to see what the probabilistic future has in store for you? What would you do if you found out you didn't have long to live? Would your life change profoundly? Would you live it as before? This random posting brought to you by Jen's hotness (mental and otherwise). Well, it was actually brought up by her oh so gentle prodding to get it up. But I'm gonna stick to the first.
Sep. 29th, 2008 @ 11:27 pm
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I've always wondered if the parents who were once our age as well, who have argued with their parents - even hated their decisions, or them - see the irony when it comes full circle, and it is them doing the same to their children. No, this isn't what is happening to me, but a good friend of mine just had to go through that while I was visiting. An explosion of (admittedly good-intentioned) criticism, all the way to all out character attacks. On her own flesh and blood. I suppose I'm really lucky my parents are who they are.
Sep. 20th, 2008 @ 09:39 pm
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| » The light at the edge of the world |
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So I've had a very hectic month and the end is almost in sight... for the term at least. Many major projects, many midterms (7 this term... bleh) and what is soon to be my exam death week have been keeping me occupied throughout the term. Those that actually keep up with my rather bland existence know that the second I have school I drop off the face of the earth. Nano does that to you. I have no idea how I'm going to keep this up for another three terms, with my next term having three labs, two of which are six hours each, and the need to start my last year project, not to mention interviews and a full course load. That aside, this has been a pretty good weekend. I've had an excellent time watching the Dark Knight (the new Batman movie), and next to the Lord of the Rings, this movie has been quite possibly the best thing I've seen in theaters, ever. Note that I've missed a lot of good movies in theaters so they don't count in this comparison. I'm almost done working on another major project, but a good friend of mine was all demanding that I update this, so there you go. Oh, so I got the PS3 back from sony and my brother's saying it's fine so next time I go back I'll catch up a bit on it. I really hope I have the time for it... Umm, besides that not too much to say. I've had the regular amount of drama, and general life, but I always forget the interesting bits when I have to talk about them. So pry them from me if you're interested. I hope the rest of you are all well, I haven't quite read LJ in a while again.....
Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 12:51 am
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I'm currently living in a semi-moldy house with a busted AC and with the humidity making it feel like a sauna. This has actually forced me outside of my home, and for those that know me, this would seem a most terrifying thing indeed. So what brings me back to this journal? Boredom. I'm sitting in a study room doing homework, enjoying the brilliant cold. I prefer being too cold to being too warm. My body can adjust to extreme cold faster and more comfortably than to extreme warmth. Well, extreme humidity. Plus the hippie/hockey hair isn't helping. In any case, this is the first time I'm writing this through live writer or whatever it's called. We'll see how screwed up it is. Also, has anyone noticed an inverse proportion of time invested to mark outcome on assignments?
Jun. 7th, 2008 @ 04:58 pm
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| » It's been ages... |
I've basically ignored this site, as my reader (not a typo) can attest. It's just always been strange to me to write about things that I'd speak of to no one but my inner self. Or whatever you want to call it.
So today, we bought my brother (and I suppose myself) rock band. We were playing it downstairs with his girlfriend, cycling the two instruments and mike as we kept going.
No, I didn't sing.
It's a great deal of fun, I have to say.
I've been working a lot, both for my job and for my projects from the online course all engineers from my school are supposed to be taking during co-op. I still need to write a work term report, and I only have a month and a half left to get it off the ground. I hope everything will work out well, but I'm kind of stuck for ideas that don't take a ton of time.
I've also been keeping busy with side projects, repairs, and a slight run in with someone who I liked for a while.
Ah, well. More later. My bro wants to play Rock Band again.
Mar. 9th, 2008 @ 09:09 pm
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| » Funny thing, life |
I wonder what I'll think when I read what I've been writing here a few years down the road.
I wonder if I'll look back and laugh it off, as some idiotic period of my life when I did everything in the most stupid way imaginable. I wonder if I'll want to take it all back.
I wonder if I'll have learned anything from all of this, or if I just think I did, only to fall victim to the same pattern later on.
I'm 20 now. I have been for five days, but it hasn't felt like it at all. I'm 1/4 of the way through my life expectancy, and this assumes I've kept myself healthy. What have I really learned up until now? What have I done so far that was really of any significance?
Kyle said something so profound once that I was surprised. It rang so true to my life that it became a catalyst for change. "Why do we have such a profound fear of numbers?" All of our lives up to this point are evaluated on a scale. Tests, quizzes, IQ, compatibility, scores. Can you really rank up your life on a scale of 1-10?
Anyway, enough rambling for now, work beckons and I need a number between 80 and 100 for it.
Apr. 30th, 2007 @ 04:14 pm
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How the hell did this happen? What the fuck is wrong with this society?
Apr. 16th, 2007 @ 10:10 pm
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I have just beaten... Gears of War... on Insane difficulty. From start to finish. In one sitting. 9 PM - 4:58 AM. What the fuck.
Ryan and I are still the kickers of ass we used to be. Woot.
My brain is now in zombie mode... so time for sleep!
Feb. 11th, 2007 @ 05:04 am
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Nothing hits you harder than saying "oh yeah, that game is a classic... when I played it 10 years ago."
I'm talking about FF7, if anyone who's talked to me online knows, I've gotten a renewed obsession with it.
I noticed I missed a lot of things when I played it, 10 years ago. A lot of themes, a lot of artwork, and mostly, I think it explains my obsession with dystopias. I can totally see a modern-day Midgar, in as little as 50 years.
My nerdiness aside, I've been keeping pretty ... occupied. Work, as per usual, is work. Take that as you will.
My house is currently more or less snowed in, with at least a foot of snow blocking our door. I'm going to head out to shovel it now, if I can open the door to get out. For the uninformed, the doorway is down some stairs which is more of an open well, so although much snow comes in, very little comes out. The drain has been frozen over for days now, so my only hope is to shovel upwards.
I miss seeing people... I haven't had any real contact with friends since at least a month ago (my Waterloo-ian friends excluded), and it kind of sucks. I think most of you are hitting midterm season right now, so I wish you all the best.
I'll try to update sooner rather than later... but for now, the bone-chilling cold beckons. Now where did I put that shovel?
Feb. 4th, 2007 @ 10:24 pm
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So I walk all the way to my job, through frozen roads and hail, only to find out that the school is closed down entirely. I do a bit of work (surprisingly) and then out of the blue a security office employee comes in with a student who wants to get something printed for a huge event that was scheduled to happen on wednesday. We look around for any trace of another employee, but no one but me showed up, and then eventually, the student gave up, and I decided I might as well head home.
So I retrace my now frozen footsteps home, do half of my PDEng assignment, and am now playing around in WoW. I can't focus in this game anymore, but it's really quiet out of it as well. It feels like I'm supposed to be doing something, but aren't. I wonder what it is...
I've had that gut feeling like I'm forgetting something for a week now, it's driving me insane.
Oh, I did forget to pack some mustard/mayo/ketchup/condiments and had to eat a turkey salad sandwich with a housemate's salad dressing that resembled mayo but not quite. I feel so sick right now...
I've noticed a huge musical shift recently as well... It's instrumental, highly stimulating through concept, and I'm a sucker for long instrumentals, especially when they're thought out and not just mathematical.
On that note, last.fm!
Note the old and new blend, for those who care.

Jan. 15th, 2007 @ 04:43 pm
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| » LANParty |
Jen had the most awesome idea and follow through: Starcraft LAN Party. Zergs were rushed. We were in people's bases, killing their doods. Much revelry was had all around, and for a good while. Switching games, though, we had some UT fun, where it was a massacre... but then, out of nowhere, Jen busts out 1337 CTF PWNAGE. It was crazy. She practically won us the game, leaving the blue team crippled and dazed.
Dec. 21st, 2006 @ 12:09 am
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Well, the last month was ridiculous... I have had so much to write, but after this incredible amount of packing, I'm not sure I remember anything. So I'll start from today and work backwards...
Well, I got back around 7ish from a pub, where a bunch of us went to celebrate finally finishing exams. Delicious wings and a good time were had by all around! I also had my contract signed for my working here, and I think I'm making around $17 an hour now... whee? Oh, also, my house finally got confirmed with my friend Omar, so I have a place to stay!
Earlier this morning, I wrote my final exam, on Biochemistry. Let's just say that I'm so happy it's only worth 40% of my grade (thank you heavy midterm + lab + assignments), and I passed the course before even going to the exam... cause if this exam was worth more...
The weekend was rather uneventful, I had a nanomaterials course exam at a horribly early hour on saturday, and when I got home I just studied my ass off for the aforementioned Biochem exam.
Thursday I wrote my Calculus exam, the one that was worth 90% of my mark. I hope I did well... and according to people I talked to, my answers seemed right. Here's hoping!
Wednesday my entire class got destroyed by Quantum Mechanics, though it was to be expected. Although the majority of the exam was somewhat OK, the 5th question was solved by only 3 or 4 people in the whole class, IF they got it right. Because Heisenberg's a bitch, I doubt even a right answer is 'right'.
Tuesday I had a surprise Economics exam. By surprise, I mean I thought I was going to have it on Thursday. At around 2 pm, Aaron asked me where the exam was, and... that doom feeling settled in. Needless to say, I studied ass off for the 5 hours I had before the exam, and I'm eagerly awaiting the results. It wasn't too bad, I don't think, but it totally threw off my quantum studying... reducing it from the whole 3 days I had planned to a single day at the end of the previous week, two half-days in-between, and what I managed to cram when I got home after my Economics exam. As someone in my class put it "I'm glad I only studied for an hour because the exam was so ridiculous and irrelevant, studying any more would have been a waste of time."
I'll write more later, more packing time.
Dec. 18th, 2006 @ 11:13 pm
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I'm in Waterloo for the whole 4 month work term here... That means I'm going to have been living in Waterloo for a whole year (4 months now, 4 months workterm, 4 months 2B term). Wow.
I'll be going home every two weeks or so, when possible, so I'll hopefully see some of you.
More as I find out..
Nov. 26th, 2006 @ 02:05 am
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